11 hour performance at Perspectives Berlin, 2020.
Exploitation is usually a dialogic form of misuse— abuse imposed from one party on another for gain— though the self is also an exploitative object, and can be misused in its own closed system. My work involves labor as an exploitation of self; the process is monotonous, seemingly infinite, often unenjoyable, although simultaneously output-bearing and therefore valuably productive. I find myself existing in dissonance: I seek concrete solutions to unanswerable questions while preventing said questions to be posed, for repetitive units replace thought; the answer is given rather than achieved or found. The process is automatic, mind-numbing, and voids the potential for creative problem-solving. The self is subjected to a task that voids its inherent creativity or pleasure in the pursuit of productivity.